Listening to: Russ Ballard - Voices
Reading: The Gunslinger
Watching: Total Recall (1990)
Drinking: Caffeine free Coke
I don't know why I'm still here.
On deviantART, I mean. I don't know why I'm on Earth, either, but that's my own business.
I've done at least 20 hand-drawn art things over more than two years, and almost no-one has seen them. (This is why I'm reluctant to scan and color things; if no one sees them and enjoys them, what's the point?)
I used to hang out here with my girlfriend, but she broke up with me a few months ago, and now we're not even friends. I really should have seen it coming; she gradually revealed to me that she didn't like movies all that much(!), that she only liked music in the context of background noise while doing something else(!!), and that she didn't really like displays of affection(‽). There were other things, but the things I've described here are really no-one's "fault".
Even worse, my three closest friends from school are all leaving after this coming semester; two are going out of state, on opposite sides of the country, while the third is going to university pretty far out of town. Thankfully, she is still friends with me; I actually tried to ask her out, and while she declined, she has the maturity to get over such a minor thing relatively quickly.
My ex, on the other hand, was furious about this, as they are friends (should have been obvious to me, I know). Even if she didn't completely hate me before, she does now. Since our community college is so small, everyone I might want to ask out is either taken, not interested in me, or not interested in my gender (i.e., most of the guys are straight, and a few girls prefer other girls).
If I'm going to do something with my life, it's not going to be through deviantART. So, I'll probably not be doing any more art for this place in the immediate future. I might stick around and come back on occasion to check on stuff other people have made, but I'll be trying to get my writing published in "real" sites, e.g. sci-fi/fantasy magazines.
TL;DR I'm semi-leaving; I'll be on on occasion, but not as a creator.